obsessive

i'm laying on a couch watching the sky brew grey and white, and i'm thinking
who the hell am i. why the hell am i here. what was i meant to be.
i always remember the quote from hugo:

"I'd imagine the whole world was one big machine. Machines never come with any extra parts, you know. They always come with the exact amount they need. So I figured if the entire world was one big machine... I couldn't be an extra part. I had to be here for some reason.
Maybe that's why a broken machine always makes me a little sad, because it isn't able to do what it was meant to do... Maybe it's the same with people. If you lose your purpose... it's like you're broken. "

it's a gorgeous quote, really. and it makes perfect sense.